Everything Hurts

I've felt this before

This heartache

Stress cardiomyopathy, they call it. 

But this time, it's worse. 

My heart, it feels like it's a stumbling horse trying to gallop

The beat; it's off. 

I've felt the pain of loving and losing in romantic connections

But that pales in comparison to this

I've lost my family. 

They're become relatives... 

people with whom I share roots but.. 

time has proven just how different we are. 

The lack of shared values has created a distance I cannot bridge. 

I feel distracted by the heartbreaking disappointment. 

And I'm so tired of grieving .. 

But I'm also grateful I've learned to love this deeply. 

What a double-edged sword... 

Everything hurts.