There is only one way to get rid of anxiety.
Finding one's own safety net.
Someone you can let in on your pain and go to for help.
Someone who can be there for you when you ask.
To find a hole to breathe through in the suffocating monotony of the daily grind.
She was my hole to breathe through.
Episode 3: Safety Net
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I spoke to my therapist today and revisited some recovery patterns from the attached document.
When I am vulnerable about my feelings and perspectives, I expect a loving and empathic response from the person I trusted enough to open up. But, instead, my relatives respond with rejection, shame, or anger; sometimes all three. That's the reason I've considered going no contact so many times.
I don't like the way I am treated.
But I still care and hope that something will change. Despite the fact that I recognize the unavailability of the people I am attached to, I don't know how to accept it or tolerate it.
I am grateful that my Brother and my Husband help me to avoid minimizing, altering, or denying how I truly feel.
Safety is possible.
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